Ramblings on Dreams and Reality

I just want to express my deep admiration for those of you who are doing what it takes to fulfill a dream. It takes courage. To dream, never mind the chasing. What do you have if you don't have a dream, they say.

I don't know if I have a dream... but I have a lot. That's a whole 'nother story. Maybe a dream is something that is born inside you. I am more of a realist. I dreamed as a kid, too much probably. When the real world reared up and hit me (starting in 7th grade), I determined that I no longer wanted to be ignorant of reality, which at the timed seemed mostly ugly. Keeping up with reality... paying attention, surviving, has taking a lot of energy over the years. Maybe if I'd let myself be a little more dreamy (if that's even possible) I would have a dream.

Maybe I just like security too much. Ya, I think that's the one. Now I feel pretty secure, and I'm happy about that. I have a steady job and no debt. So does my hubby. Knocking knocking on wood. We look at houses. We talk about having kids some day. We talk about staying healthy by exercising and eating right. But following dreams, that conversation is harder.

First of all, to dream, you have to be like a sniper, shooting down all the reasons-why-not before they destroy the dream altogether. It also helps to have an attention span longer than a gnat's because dreaming takes TIME. Then you have to be willing to take risks. I don't consider myself a risk taker (I did get married though). Then you have to work like heck and not worry about regrets, something I constantly work on!

That is my tutorial on how to dream. Do not take this post to mean I am going to give birth to a grand dream. But... I hope I don't kill it if one pops up for some reason.

I'm 30!

It hasn't hit me yet. I don't have time to be hit. I go to work, come home, find food, go to bed, get up and go back to work. The last two weekends Pete and I have been out of town.

On my birthday, Pete took me to a lovely restaurant called Michael's on the Thames, in London Ontario. The atmosphere was relaxed, unhurried and cozy, and I got serenaded with an accordion, no less! The food was spectacular. They make certain dishes right in front of you. Like Caesar salad, and peach flambe, complete with big flames and all. It was awesome...

Now to get myself organized again. Eating healthy is a huge challenge when working full time! I wonder why it is so hard to follow my own nutrition advice. If only my clients knew how much better than me they are eating... well some of them anyway.

I must be off to bed. I have never felt the beginnings of a sore throat whilst still recovering from a cold... winter is killing me. I need a break!